run!

Just did my first couch to 5K run in preparation for the warrior dash/ just because I need to get up off my fat arse and get back into shape.
It was harder at first but by the end I thought "eh, i could keep going if I had to"

Ready for my chest not to feel like I'm dying everytime I run. How long does it take for that to happen? Oh well, even if it never happens I'll keep going. 1/2 because I need to and 1/2 because some people think I can't. And nothing motivates me more then a "you can't." So suck it, world. Ima run. And I'm even going to be good at it, whether I like it or not. So there.

Back to normal

The last few weeks have been tons of fun, with very minimal work, Florida, OC, Courtney coming to visit and the accompanying adventures. Starting tomorrow I'm back to work on a more normal schedule. BOOOOOOOO to that. I feeling much stress until taxes are done and over with, and after that, just going through the motions until June when my life will free up a little bit. Cutting back to 36 hours, only working every 3rd weekend, and perhaps permanent nightshift. All of these things will make me happy. Frank's paychecks/money situation will normalize by March and we'll both be able to start saving, for some stuff around the apartment and maybe even for some fun vacations in the future! Two things I really want to do are Disney World and a cruise. Never been on a real vacay other then Disney World as a child so going anywhere with my man would be amazing. Apart from being worried about taxes (not for much longer tho!) things are going great. I had a wonderful Valentine's Day and I got a new pediatric stethoscope I've been wanting since I started working. The lady at the scrubs store told Frank it was a good gift and he would get lucky lol.

I desperately need to start practicing/training/learning how to run better for the Warrior Dash in May. Looks like tons of friends will be there on Sunday, lots running in the same group with me at 2:30. I'm excited to get back in shape again, a shape other then round and puffy. Hopefully my couch to 5K app on my phone will be a great help for me.

Well back to cleaning and laundry I go.

Florida is warmer then Maryland.

Got back from my little trip to Florida the other day, back to work now.

Florida was wonderful. Warm. No work. Got some sunshine and some rest. Missed my bunnies and my hunnie like crazy though. If I didn't love them all so much I just might've stayed in FL. I'd love to live down there so much but I don't want to be that far away from all my friends and family. Still think about maybe moving back to the beach in the future, been pondering that since I moved back to Baltimore. I'm not good at making decisions when there's no clear cut better choice. Guess I'll just keep my eyes open for opportunities and go where the wind takes me, like usual.

Counting down the days til I can cut back my hours at work- lets go June! At least my schedule in February is much friendlier then January. And I'm back to dayshift this week. So I'll get to see Frank a lot more, in his waking hours at least.

I'm so ready for warmer weather. Can we just turn on the Sun in Maryland so I can just be happily warm here? I think that way everyone wins.
Excited for this weekend. Frank's sister is comin to visit and we're gonna go to the aquarium. I haven't been there in years so should be fun, I always love goin there and seein all the fishies and assorted aquatic life. Then to spend Valentine's day with my love. Can't remember the last time I actually cared about Valentines day but I'm just happy to spend it with Frank. And I'm sure he's excited for the 15th.

Welp I'm gonna be late for work so I better stop typing here.

Bye friends.

January

Thoughts:

My life would be so.much.easier. if I could win the lottery. Not even the big zillion dollar lottery, but a couple thousand would really put me ahead of the game and finally let me purchase the last few things I want for my apartment. I'm tired of being juuuust barely too broke to do anything about it.

The amount I'm going to owe in taxes this year scares me. I'm terrified. And don't have anyone to help me out anymore. At least when I was in school I had an excuse.

I hate feeling stressed about things that are out of my control. If it's a problem I can actively work on, I don't even mind, it gives me something to do and a goal to accomplish. But when its out of my hands... grrrawwwrrrr. Can't stand it.

I really love working nightshift at work... when I'm at work. My life outside of this I am not a fan of. I can still go out at night and see my friends who also work nights but I only see Frank when we're sleeping and it makes things like grocery shopping and necessary errands hard to do. Maybe its better if I'm not working a zillion days in a row all the time.

I kind of want to fast forward to like May, not only to skip the cold (brrrrrrrr!) but I feel like by then everything will be settled down and most of my current life stress will be over.

Speaking of cold, I'm flippin sick of this freezing cold. My BGE bill is ridiculous. I'm so ready for Florida. So I'm going. On the 29th. My present to myself. Wish I was going on my real vacation that I was supposed to but I guess this is ok. It's better then nothing. Maybe by next year I'll be able to take a real vacation. I'll keep hoping.

well I'm off to run all these errands I speak of before stores close despite I just woke up.

A new year

Almost time for a new year. 2010 was crazy, in the good way. The usual ups and downs. Lots of big changes, some I had been working towards for years and some very unexpected. But all for the better.

I'm ready to see what 2011 has in store for me.
Hopefully I'll be just as awesome as I was in 2010 ;-)

boooooooooooo

Christmas Eve is tomorrow. I'm working. And then coming home to an empty apartment. And then waking up at 5 am on Christmas morning and going back to work. And then rushing to my family's house after work to see everybody for a hot second before I have to go home and back to bed to go to work the next morning too.

I think I'm more depressed about my lonely Christmas Eve then my working Christmas Day, at least I get to spend that playing with/cheering up kids who should be home for Christmas and not stuck in the PICU. At least I have my bunnies I guess. This is usually my favorite holiday. I'm kind of wishing I could just skip all of it this year, which I guess I kind of am doing, but not... cause I know everybody else is with their families. I can't even just go to my mom's house for the night because I took my bed from there and now all that's in my room is an old exercise bike.

I guess I should stop feeling sorry for myself because I have a great family that I usually get to see and an apartment to come home to but it still sucks :-( That is all.

Wintertime!

I'm a huge slacker who never updates her journal, so says Frank. It's getting to be verryyyy coollld outside which makes me want to go to Florida TONIGHTA. We've already had a bit of snow which is lovely when I have off work. but won't be so lovely if I have to work and drive in it, or get stuck at the hospital. I really wish I had been able to save up lots of money when I started working so I could have some extra for perhaps a more winter-ready car. Hopefully Silver Fox (the Saturn) will be able to continue it's run as SNOW BEAST for a least one more winter til I can get something with AWD or just pack up and move to Florida and get something faster :-).

I have 1 week off of work from Tuesday - Tuesday that I'm right in the middle of. It has been LOVELY. I would not be upset if I never had to go back. But alas, I do. And I have to work Christmas Eve, day, and the following day... laaaame. Not sure if Frank will be here for the holidays but if he isn't I think my mom will stay with me Christmas Eve on my big comfy couch because working all the Christmas holiday and being here all alone will be very depressing. He should be starting work soon (hooorraaayyyy!) so I will actually have some help with my living expenses and I think I'll be able to start saving a lot more money. I desperately need a coffee table and desk for my computer room with no computer.

I also think we're going to paint the apartment and deciding on colors is fun, but I'm not very good at decorating or anything like that so I'm glad I have help. Otherwise it would stay white and boring in here. My apartment (aside from Christmastime where I decked it out all cute-like for now) looks like a boy lives here and that kind of bugs me but I don't really have the skills by myself to do anything about it. Having Frank around has been lovely :-) It makes this place a lot more fun and he puts up with my grumpiness before and after work very well lol. I think the solution is me working a lot less but that is not do-able right now. I will cut back my hours to 36/week in June and haven't decided on going to permanent night shift yet but it is appealing.

My birthday was this past Tuesday and I had a great one :-) I have awesome people in my life these days and I feel so blessed to have such great friends and family.. and bunnies. Can't forget the buns. Frank and I made them their own bunny Christmas stockings with their names on them that are super cute. All that's left is for me to wrap all the presents for everyone and I'll be all set for Christmas. Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa/ whatever the heck else people celebrate.

And GO RAVENS.