Thoughts:
My life would be so.much.easier. if I could win the lottery. Not even the big zillion dollar lottery, but a couple thousand would really put me ahead of the game and finally let me purchase the last few things I want for my apartment. I'm tired of being juuuust barely too broke to do anything about it.
The amount I'm going to owe in taxes this year scares me. I'm terrified. And don't have anyone to help me out anymore. At least when I was in school I had an excuse.
I hate feeling stressed about things that are out of my control. If it's a problem I can actively work on, I don't even mind, it gives me something to do and a goal to accomplish. But when its out of my hands... grrrawwwrrrr. Can't stand it.
I really love working nightshift at work... when I'm at work. My life outside of this I am not a fan of. I can still go out at night and see my friends who also work nights but I only see Frank when we're sleeping and it makes things like grocery shopping and necessary errands hard to do. Maybe its better if I'm not working a zillion days in a row all the time.
I kind of want to fast forward to like May, not only to skip the cold (brrrrrrrr!) but I feel like by then everything will be settled down and most of my current life stress will be over.
Speaking of cold, I'm flippin sick of this freezing cold. My BGE bill is ridiculous. I'm so ready for Florida. So I'm going. On the 29th. My present to myself. Wish I was going on my real vacation that I was supposed to but I guess this is ok. It's better then nothing. Maybe by next year I'll be able to take a real vacation. I'll keep hoping.
well I'm off to run all these errands I speak of before stores close despite I just woke up.
