Disillusion

Disillusionment : to free from illusion; also : to cause to lose naive faith and trust

Yes. 

It's like that point where you go from saying "oh this and this and this kinda suck... BUT.... blah blah blah good happy things" to saying "Oh this and this and this suck. No that's all... they just suck." What am I rambling about? My job. Yeah, there are some parts of it that are super great, and some people think I do all these great things, but ya know what... a lot of it really just blows. And not like 'oh workin for the man, gotta do shitty things just to make a living, welcome to the real world lauren." I'm not bothered by that at all. More like the situations I encounter on a daily basis. The really F$%8'd up stuff that won't get any better. And the lack of respect for the nurses that bust their butts doing what we do. We get second guessed, yelled at, requested not to have certain children back by their parents, and all sorts of crazy stuff after we put in 12 hours of physically, mentally, and emotionally draining work. Ridiculous I tell ya. 

I still do love my job, and getting to help kiddos get better and make a difference, but the disillusionment has definitely set in. Maybe I'm just ready for Florida...

That's just my thoughts for the night. :-) TTYL